Memories & The Stuff That Keeps Us Up at Night

I remember when my father brought home our families first computer in the mid 1990’s. I was maybe 8 or 9 years-old. The computer was slow, over-sized, ugly, by today’s standards, but I was convinced it was God’s gift to mankind. It was as if there was some kind of switch that was set off inside my brain. I probably thought it was because I got to play MLB ’96 on Windows 3.1, or learning how to navigate using old DOS commands, which was great, still, there was something else. Of course, it wasn’t until years later, after I was grown, after his passing on, that I realized I just loved spending that extra time with dad. Seeing a side of him that I probably wouldn’t have, otherwise.

There are a lot of things my dad did wrong. He was a man with many personal demons and carried around a lot of emotional and physical pain. I’m convinced the man must have lived 100 lives. Each time, getting closer to realizing so many of his dreams and loved one’s dreams only to be stopped short by some unforeseen, unavoidable force. A force that was just bigger and “badder” than he, but not by much.

Then, I’m reminded that despite all of this, my father was able to leave so many real, positive things behind that touched many peoples lives. Even if he was just trying to live a goodly life to attain for his earlier sins; that’s okay. I’m also from time to time reminded of the memories I have, and like this memory that kept me up tonight, I know I hope I will be discovering more for years to come.


Pre-Op Thoughts: Not All Bad…

Just some pre-op thoughts while I wait for an operating room…and my surgeon to sober up.

I’m kidding, they probably have a couple OR’s open.


You know, Texas has some of the most beautiful nurses…that’s not just the Dilaudid talking. I believe, in fact, ACC, UT Texas & Texas State have nursing programs with this hospital…and that’s just to name a few schools. Okay, so, yea, I’m pushing 30.. But I only look 25. (Not as good as it sounds..but it doesn’t sound that good either, come to think of it.)

::Clears Throat::

I should probably just try to talk to one of these pretty young doctors & stop having to pretend to be sick to see her right…
Maybe I’ll just stick with the surgery. That might be easier. : P
Yes, I’ve got jokes. That one just kills ’em in the OR.


Love from Crohn’s Anonymous,

  • J. L. 


Back Agaainn!

This morning, I woke up to a startling realization: I was back in the hospital.


Yup. Turns out that 20+ admissions since 2007 for incision & drainage of abscess, multiple abscess, fistulotomy’s are not the end of the line on this Crohn’s crazy train. Not to speak of the two small bowel resections in 2004 and spring of 2016.

So, hopefully, you’ll keep reading articles like these and find some sort of comfort in my pain, or, perhaps if nothing else, just maybe,some (extra) courage.

Keep on goin’ & doin’ the best you can.


—for Crohn’s Anonymous, thanks for reading

  • J. L. 


Post Script: Remember you may have Crohn’s disease, but Crohn’s disease doesn’t have you, until you let it. You are so much more than CD, IBS, UC or whatever inflammatory bowel disease you may be dealing with.

I’m Sharing: Crohn’s Disease, Colitis Tied to Anxiety in Study


‘I’M SHARING’, a new page for Crohn’s Anonymous.


This is a page where I repost articles that we like.
Enjoy the good read(s).

– Crohn’s Anonymous admin


By Robert Preidt

HealthDay Reporter

TUESDAY, Aug. 4, 2015 (HealthDay News) — People with inflammatory bowel disease, such as Crohn’s disease or ulcerative colitis, have an increased risk for an anxiety disorder, especially women, a new study suggests.

Inflammatory bowel disease (IBD) is a group of disorders that cause chronic inflammation of the digestive tract.

“Patients with IBD face substantial chronic physical problems associated with the disease,” lead author Esme Fuller-Thomson, a professor from the University of Toronto, said in a university news release. “The additional burden of anxiety disorders makes life much more challenging so this ‘double jeopardy’ must be addressed.”

The study authors looked at 269 Canadian adults who had been diagnosed with an inflammatory bowel disease. The researchers found that these patients were two times more likely to have had generalized anxiety disorder at some point in their lives than adults without Crohn’s or colitis.


And for women, the risk was four times greater than for men, the investigators found.

In addition, people with an inflammatory bowel disease and a history of childhood sexual abuse had a sixfold increased risk of an anxiety disorder. And those with Crohn’s or colitis who reported having moderate or severe chronic pain were twice as likely to have an anxiety disorder as those with mild or no pain, the study revealed.

Although this study found an association between people with an inflammatory bowel disease and the likelihood of an anxiety disorder, it wasn’t designed to prove a cause-and-effect relationship between these conditions.

Findings were published online recently in the journal Inflammatory Bowel Diseases.


“The study draws attention to the need for routine screening and targeted interventions for anxiety disorders. Particularly among the most vulnerable patients with IBD: women, individuals who are in chronic pain, and those with a history of childhood sexual abuse,” study co-author and adjunct lecturer Joanne Sulman, from the University of Toronto, said in the news release.

The study also highlights the link between physical and mental health, according to Patrick McGowan, an assistant professor of biological sciences at the University of Toronto. He was not directly involved in the study.

“We sometimes think of the two as if they are entirely separate entities but the reality is they are intimately linked. Both involve genuine physical changes in the body and affect each other,” McGowan said in the news release.

Crohn’s Anonymous: Introduction


≡          I’d LIKE TO WELCOME YOU TO:

                  ‘CROHN’S ANONYMOUS’ 

This is ‘Crohn’s Anonymous’. Better or for worse. We’re Crohn’s. Crohn’s is not us.

Hi, I’m CrohnsAnonymous, and I’m a Crohn’s-a-holic. Whatever, right?

Like many of you, I have quite a story. I’ve always thought what could I do to help people and get paid doing it? So far, I’ve been a guitar/piano teacher and a Crohn’s disease advocate. So far, I haven’t got paid, at all, but that’s not why people set out doing things like this. If I could save one kid from getting discouraged and going down the ridiculous path I went down, and this blog, or something on this site kept that person from the pain and wasting of time, that makes not getting paid all worth it. 

I do swriting so I decided to learn blogging so that I could CONNECT with people similar to me, that is people with IBS (irritable bowel syndrome), IBD (inflammatory bowel disease)  UC (ulcerative colitis) and other inflammatory disorders.

– Post Script: That is not a word, “Crohn’s-a-holic”. Just in case that wasn’t obvious by my sometimes weird idea of dry humor. It’s true, though, the saying from biblic times, “Laughter doeth good like a medicine”. Maybe n some of the medicines I’ve been on and off more than a few times over my nearly 15 years of having the disease, (joking) but I digress. I’ll talk a bit more about that later.   

But really, welcome to the site, look around, remember it’s still a work in progress, if you see anything you like, follow, or simply click like or share on social media. Oh, yea, leave comments if you feel like it…I read all the comments and usually reply. That’s one of the reasons I’m awake at 5:15am on a…well, you get the point.

— I’d like to welcome y0u all to “”. 

I suppose I should get into a little about my story and ‘time’ with Crohn’s disease..and I will. For now, I’m going to go work on a few other parts of the site… and leave you, for now, with this, as it’s s all I can think of to say at this juncture. I’m new at this, bare with me…but I’m confident that this is exactly what I’m supposed to be doing, at this exact moment; for what it’s worth. I believe in the power of communication, connections, and bringing together some ideas, solutions, problems, and idk what Crohn’s Anonymous is yet. Dunno. Not a an clue. But with your help, support, in every way you feel like helping by sharing,  being vocal about your story, stories of people you love, etc., I think this might one day be something to look back on and be proud you were part of.


— I’d like to welcome y0u all to “”. 

Follow or Subscribe to receive a periodical. Remember when doing either that just receiving the confirmation email (which is sometimes found in the spam folder in your inbox) doesn’t mean you’re quite done. I know…but once you reply to that “confirmation email” you’re in. Or just swing by the site every now and then. As long as you’re happy, I’m happy. I’m just sayin’..hopefully you’ll enjoy what you read and it will add meaning to what people with a bowel disorder or auto-immune disease, for those with gluten sensitivities, inflammatory disease, stay tuned.

What is CBD? pt. I 

 I would love, always, to hear your feedback!

  • CBD


See link below as well


Cannabis & Crohn’s Disease PT. I – The Research Doesn’t Lie

When research is done on any given drug, it is done so by scientists, using- yes! Using science. Science does not have an agenda. Science is rigorously testing over and over again. Because science is not about guessing; science is only interested in facts. Science is knowing, and the scientists who risk their reputations to take on research, have no reason to fabricate their findings, as it would undoubtedly lead to devastating professional ruin.

Take a look for yourself. Click on the links below to see the truth about Crohn’s disease and marijuana as told by MMJ Doctor Online.

MmjDoctorOnline.COM The Truth About Crohn’s and Marijuana (cannabis)

MmjDoctorOnline.COM – Blog on Cannabis and can help with Crohn’s Disease and other IBD’s