Chew, Swallow, Repeat… Doesn’t sound hard, does it? I’d just like to feel hungry again or swallow without discomfort, feeling as I once had.

The truth is I haven’t felt truly hungry since the last time I smoked weed or when I was on years ago before stopped going to pain management doctors for opioid treatment. But that’s a story for another time. For now, I’m consumed with anger at the fact that everytime that I need to eat, I have to make myself & force something down my throat, which is sore, as it happens. Likely because it is so inflamed. This, however, requires a barium swallow, if I were to tell my gastroenterologist. When all I need is:

A.) Something to get rid of the pain in my joints (mainly my knees & neck), both of which have advanced osteopenia (not irreversible bone loss but, significant, on the verge of osteoporosis). Something like CBD or Cannabis…even Ketamine. Search Google for “Ketamine Infusions” (more on that at a later time)

B.) Something to treat my personality crippling anxiety (Cannabis, CBD, Growth hormone, testosterone inj.)

Yea, I know there are natural mental exercises and what not, and I completely agree. It’s just now, I feel like I don’t have that kind of time. Losing strength daily isn’t a time for maintenance methods, it’s a time for, in my opinion, strong, multi-pharmacotherapeutic action. If ya got it in your arsenal, when’s the best time to pull it out? When the patient’s too far gone or when he/she may feel like they’re close. Because they’ve been close before and knows what that feels like. That is what I am going to write to my physicians, anyway.

That’s as much as I can stand myself bitching at one sitting.

Sorry, if this wasn’t the positive, inspirational, go get ’em you may have needed. Maybe next time, right?

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